Part XXXXIV: A Different Drummer
If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.
Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away.
~ Henry David Thoreau
I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go.
My own wisdom and that of all about me seemed insufficient for that day.
~ Abraham Lincoln
2003 took me further into the “limbo” state. Rev. June’s reminder reverberated in my mind and heart and I wasted no time in focusing my reliance on my Universal parent. I came to the deep understanding that my business was not and had never been the source of my income. My business was only a channel for income - an expected channel for a great many years, but still just a channel - and June reminded me that there were thousands – actually unlimited - channels through which my supply could flow. But in order to open the pipeline to the vast storehouse of supply, I knew that I must acknowledge and place my reliance only on the one true Source.
My “deep” understanding of this concept was the easy part. It was my conscious acceptance that provided the challenge in light of the uncertainty of outer conditions. It became more and more obvious to me that “times, they were a changin’.” My business was no longer the security blanket that I held onto over the years. It no longer offered emotional satisfaction. There were a couple of events in early 2003, but nothing of note. And the interest just wasn’t there for me any more. I went through the motions but I felt disconnected from them.
Here I was, a post menopausal woman at a major standstill or crossroads in my life and career, with a vast knowledge of mental and spiritual laws and nowhere to go. Now THAT’s a combination.
Ooooh…and then there was THE thought. I will make a confession to you now that may shock you. I will admit that the direst of thoughts entered my mind at this crossroads. The ultimate thought – the unthinkable thought. The thought that you would never expect someone with my experience, faith and conviction to entertain for a moment. The thought that could throw any full-blooded entrepreneur into a tailspin and bring them to their knees. The thought did indeed bring me to my spiritual knees.
The thought? I actually considered for a moment or two or three that I should look for a J.O.B. Yes, that’s the direst thought. No, it wasn't that other direst thought. Haven’t you heard of the "entrepreneur’s creed?" It was drafted by Patrick Henry in 1775…
I know not what course others may take; but as for me, give me liberty or give me death!
~ Patrick Henry
Okay, I know he wasn’t referring to entrepreneurship, but it’s still the same idea to those of us who listen to our own drummer. So maybe Thoreau was a bit closer to the truth.
I actually created a resume. Ha! What kind of a resume does someone create who has not worked for anyone else for decades. What kind of a resume? Well, not the kind that employers take seriously. They know darn well that entrepreneurs would never be happy or stay in a position working for someone else. And I know that I would never be happy getting up early to go to work!
Do you recall when I previously said that Rev. June's statement was one of the two most important things that she had said to me that impacted my life? Actually, I now recall that it was one of THREE most important things that she said that impacted my life.
She told me quite matter of factly that I could never work for anyone else. Well, I already knew that. I just needed to hear it from someone I respected.
But here is the second most important thing that truly impacted my life. And changed it forever...
In the midst of discussing my situation and the options I was attempting to grasp from Universal Mind, June quietly said five words to me that would forever change my life and circumstances. Or if they were not actually responsible FOR the change, they at least served as fair notice OF my pending destiny. It took me awhile to process them, but when I did, they stopped me right in my tracks...
To be continued...
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