Part XXXXV: Synchronicity is Still My Game
Wisdom is not in words; Wisdom is meaning within words.
~ Kahlil Gibran
Think twice before you speak, because your words and influence
will plant the seed of either success or failure in the mind of another.
~ Napolean Hill
June said quietly, "You could teach, you know."
I don’t remember the exact feelings I had at the time, but I am certain those words didn’t take root immediately. Teach? Here was a New Thought minister associated with a renowned Church of Religious Science (now called Center for Spiritual Growth and Awareness) and with years of experience in spiritual law telling me that I could teach. I was reaching out to her for support during my own dark night seeking light on my path, and she was telling me that I could teach. It just didn’t compute at the time. June knew that I was advanced in my knowledge, but teaching? I had always thought that teaching only came with credentials and training and formality, none of which I had pursued in my years of self study and application of mental and spiritual laws. True, my teachers were the most brilliant minds of the century in mental and spiritual science, but I had no formal credential.
But the seed was planted and the germination process had begun, even without my tending the garden.
I remained focused on connecting with my Source of supply for guidance, direction and supply. My loved ones knew that when I engaged in serious conversation with the Divine, it was necessary for me to retreat. They understood me and respected my need to be alone. There were two reasons that I found retreat beneficial during these times.
First, I retreated to feel and surround myself with the loving Presence that is the source of all healing, all peace, all harmony and all supply.. It was time to communicate with that Presence, to feel that Presence and to be completely enveloped in its Love. I often think of this as being embraced by the Universal arms.
The second reason that retreat was necessary was because of my firm and unwavering belief in the power of words. It is fine to seek comfort and to vent our feelings of frustration with a caring friend or confident – I believe we must release those negative thoughts and feelings to create our space to receive, but once we have created that space in our mind and heart, it is time to be still in our center of peace and listen.
I knew from years of experience that it was too easy to complaint when someone was there to listen. I knew that if I shut the door to go within, I would not complain or put a voice to what I did not wish to create. I could concentrate my full attention on renewing my connection with my Source and doing my “homework” to begin the process of creation. Those close to me knew that when I returned from my retreat, the magic would follow and miracles would result. They had seen it happen too often to doubt. I would hide out and play with the Universe and return with a major manifestation of some kind.
Their love and support was and is a very important part of my life and my spiritual process.
Unexpected doors did begin to open for me to receive – these new channels involved different clients and situations than I had ever dealt with before. Although they related to my business background, these projects were completely unlike my normal business bookings and looking back, I see that they were meant to be temporary and part of the transition period. They were one of a kind, shorter term projects and I believe now that they were meant to keep me afloat while I was “loosening” my hold on my business and recognizing a new pattern that began to emerge. I needed to release my business in consciousness in order to open my mind to a new world that was presenting itself to me in the most spontaneous ways. So these odd business projects brought income but convinced me all the more of the world I wanted to leave behind.
For the first time, I began to learn to use a computer. My landlord had lost its master lease in the highrise towers a couple of years before and all of the tenants needed to find new offices. I brought everything home and decided to take a breather, as I was hardly using my office in recent years and was experiencing the change in my business consciousness. I continued to have my business contracts done by a secretary at the Towers, but then the time came when I reasoned very clearly that if every eight year old in this city could use a computer, then I could certainly learn to use one.
I was not part of the generation that grew up with computers and it was intimidating at first to say the least, but I caught on fairly quickly. I taught myself the basics at Kinko’s and then one day my close friend delivered a computer to my home. That was the first day of my new life, or rather my new evolution.
I came across a spiritual site on the Internet and one of the contributing writers on the site lived in Canada and wrote beautiful human interest stories. We struck up an acquaintance and spoke on the phone and emailed. At the same time I was getting very strong promptings from within to put certain principles in lesson form. Dave was encouraging me to teach my lessons and I couldn’t figure out how I could possibly find students or make myself known to a community to share my teachings, but he kept encouraging me. I found that when I became very tired…I mean very tired, almost to the point of exhaustion, my conscious mind would be so subdued that my intuition would take over and lesson material would emerge from another part of my being. I received specific intuitive insights about the principles and receptivity of the subconscious mind based on my background.. I would type each segment up and send it off to Dave and to a soul mate, Bill, to review.
One night Dave and I were chatting by email and it was time to say good night. I was being cute and ended the night’s final note with something like...
“Well, good night…
Feel free to prosper,
Suddenly I received an email back from Dave with HUGE letters saying…
“EGADS!! That’s the name! That’s the name! Feel Free to Prosper is the name!"
I wrote, “Egads? I haven’t heard that term in decades, you old hippie, you.”
The next day Bill checked all over the Internet to see if anyone was using the phrase or the name. There was nothing.
Feel Free to Prosper is the name. Synchronicity is still my game. :-)
To be continued...
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